Verdict: Worst book I read this year.
My rating: 1 out of 5 stars
Published January 2019.
It took one night with her to know she was my forever.
It took one minute for me to climb out of bed and drive away from her.
It’s taken me three years to confess that leaving her behind was the biggest mistake of my life.
I won’t stop until she knows what she means to me. I’ll convince her to listen to her heart.
It took one night for all of my dreams to come true.
It took one morning, waking up alone, for those same dreams to come crashing down around me.
It’s taken me three years to confess that night changed me forever.
He says this time is different, but how do I open my heart up to a man who’s already ripped it to shreds?
I have not written any full reviews on the millions of romance novels I have read these last two months but this one made me angry enough that I am starting now. I found this abysmal. If that had been the only thing I thought about it, I wouldn’t have minded as much, but I also found it sexist and that just annoys me. I am not reading romance to be hit on the head with how stupid women are – the opposite in fact. I like romance because it can be empowering and because it focusses on human relationships (romantic and otherwise) in a way that works really well for me. Well-written romance is wonderful, badly written romance on the other hand is pretty much the worst thing to read.
I should have given up on the book on page 1 (so that is on me) when the book starts with these lovely sentences: “It’s been three long years since I’ve been home. Three years of blaming it on my job at the hospital, the eleven-hour drive, and a host of other “reasons” I couldn’t come home. Three years of acting as if the dick swinging between my legs is actually a vagina, when it really there is only one reason.” Kill me now, please. The book doesn’t get any less sexist from here on.
Thing is, Grady hooked up (“gave into temptation”) with his best friend’s little sister who had a crush on him forever who “gave herself to him” (I hate that phrase and the obsession with virginity some books have) – and then he ran away for stupid reasons, leaving a woman who obviously treats sex as something super important to wake up on her own and never replying to her texts. This is very much an asshole move but it’s also a reason for him having to grovel that just doesn’t do it for me. Now, I know that my more easy attitude towards sex is not a problem with the book per se, but still the endless groveling got increasingly repetitive and for me at least overly dramatic. Once they mostly resolve their problem and decide to date again, they move at lightning speed even though she has still moments of doubt. I hated that.
Other things that annoyed me because apparently this book was custom-made for me to hate it:
- every woman who meets Grady flirts with him because every woman only sees his status as a doctor,
- Collins cleaning Grady’s flat and going shopping for him although they have only been dating for a week or so because obviously that is her job and she (a nurse) doesn’t work as hard as he does (a doctor),
- the phrase “my cock saluted her” (in general the weird mix of superficial sanctimoneousness and crude language really didn’t work for me),
- both of them staying celibate for three years between their one-night-stand and them seeing each other again (I know this one is a me-thing and not a problem with the book),
- the endless parades of “I love you” in every single conversations, often more than once, after dating for a week,
- weird sentences like this one: “She makes a gun with her hand and pretends to blow smoke off the barrell, which is her index finger, causing us both to laugh.”,
- and finally: Collins never ever brushes her teeth. What’s up with that?